I think I am infected

I was walking tonight and started to pray a familiar prayer which is now becoming more frequent in my life.  It goes like this:

“Dear Lord, please grant me the grace today to love you with all of my heart, with all of my soul, with all of my mind and with all of my strength.   And give me the grace to love my neighbor as myself…so that I can love what you love”
I then follow that with an “Our Father”, a “Hail Mary” and a “Glory Be”.    I have been doing this for a little while and I am sensing a shift in my heart.  
Where the infection comes in – is as I am praying the “Our Father” my mind begins to shift and I start thinking about how I can share this idea with others on Facebook, Instagram, etc.   By the tail end of “Forgive us our trespasses” I realize what my mind has been doing.  And I begin to repent of these thoughts.  
I recognize that I have  a problem. I am infected with the way the world thinks.  We don’t just live anymore.  We “share” all the time.  I don’t just pray for the sake of praying.   Now I pray and want to “share” that with everyone to “encourage” others to do the same.  
Why do I do this?  Why not just pray and keep it between the Lord and myself?  (And here is the irony – I am writing about this and “sharing” again).  I find myself often fluctuating between abandoning “digital life” all together and going the way of the Amish….or just accepting this as the culture I now live within.
One of those 1st steps has something to do with “recognizing I have a problem that I am powerless to overcome”.   Perhaps for now, it is enough to recognize the problem…and continue to pray that prayer so that eventually….you may never hear about struggles like this.


“Nil nisi te, Domine”




Looking for an easier path

As the journey of life continues, I am trying to find an easier way to get some thoughts online.   Weebly.com has been my platform for the last couple of years.  However, it has a few steps to go through to get a posting online.

Tumblr is quickest – but messy.   Twitter and Facebook – too limited.   So this year, as a way to consolidate life, I decided to migrate more of my digital world to Google.   Already, Google has my calendar, email, voice services/text messaging and now web/domain hosting.  Only makes sense I also put my cloud storage there too – all under one roof.   Hmmm…makes me think of a movie I recently saw!

But in the end, if it is too many steps I just won’t do it.  Unlike the Camino where we have days and days of endless steps.  But even there, you look for the easier way if there is one.

So let’s see if the Blogger.com platform is easier.  And if so…perhaps I’ll be saying more to the world sooner than later.